Current Song Playing: Labi Siffre- I Got the (Blues)
Well ppl. this is my first blog site and attempt! This is the point in time that you should be proud and say well good for him. If thats not the case.... Fuck u i just wanted some damn approval! lol. But lets get down to business. So what im gonna do from this moment on is relay my thoughts and personal feelings twice a week. Simply my therapist considers this a healthy thing to do. I will get basically fully detailed with descriptive scenery, ppl and thoughts of course. So im gonna begin this with this past day of June 20th 2008. The day my cousins 1st nephew died.
Why is it that when ppl reach out whenever listen to them? Or if we do listen, why don't we as a dominate species on the planet help our fellow man? Clearly this boy has had issues with his stepfather abusing him and his own mother taking the side of the stepfather only to be found lying dead on the floor of his own bedroom. So nobody sees the signs of someone trying to reach out. In short a simple cry for help. Only now that ppl are in a frenzy to help him. But at his age of 16 is to find a place to lay his head for eternity. Sad is the cliche way to put it. In my mind i would say its morally appalling to the masses. My concern is how will certain ppl react when im dead and gone. And with the dreams I've had for the past 8 years i really don't have that much time left to handle my life accordingly. Maybe I'm playing too much in to a simple dream/nightmare.
Life is complicated don't get me wrong. But where do we draw the line and consider just breathing and taking in the current moment a privilege and satisfaction. At this moment it is four in the morning, sitting in my basement with HBO on the flat screen and a couple of friends came through to have a couple of drinks, left and it took my mind off of the topic of death for quite some time. Now its like i always had someone here to leave all the current thoughts behind.
Eh. I'm just getting a bit too real for my current mind set. Love to all and these next couple of days you will hear from me.
